LHW, Horatio, waxfruit...
I had to keep telling myself there was nothing that would be made better by drinking. I had proved that over and over and that wasn't going to change.
I had to find other ways to deal with my pain, my losses, my grief. Sure alcohol gives a temporary numbing, but then the problem is still there and I still have to deal with it and let's face it, no one wants to be a 24/7 drunk to keep from feeling normal human emotions. It's just worse with the added hangover, regret, and self-loathing.
I often say I have pages of bad stuff that happened to me, too. Not to diminish other peoples' pain - but it is the Human Condition.
My mantra in early days was, "I don't drink. No matter what." Emotions ebb and flow like the sea. No bad thing lasts in intensity, and neither does a good thing. Life flows. I had to be the rock in the river.
