So, I relapsed. Ended up drinking a 12 pack of beer Wednesday and a magnum bottle of wine yesterday. I did buy 2 magnum bottles and dumped the rest this morning. What a waste of money. I guess it's a waste of money either way. This is the furthest I've gone on a binge in over a year. It's scary. My heart rate was at 146 last night around 8pm now around 105. Kinda scared me. I was also jerking out of my sleep all night. When that happens I know I need to stop.
My anxiety is all job related. Kind of makes me mad that they aren't having me start work until next, Tuesday. Idle hands. Also scares me they won't even start me at all and I've now wasted a week and given up another job so I can commit myself to them. The over thinking from drinking to much is almost unbearable. If I don't hear from them today, I will be giving them another call.
I dunno, gonna try again today.