Originally Posted by
SereneEdition 
Bluemilk -
Sorry that you lost your friend.
Your insight that you drank b/c you didn't know what else to do resonated with my recovery. I was finally successful when I focused on learning what I really needed/what to do instead of drinking, instead of just focusing on avoiding drinking.
I was a bit slower than you in realizing that. It took me years until I learned that lesson...
Do you have a grief support group/friends to talk to about your loss?
Good luck!
Thank you. I have a few really close friends who are always around when I need them, I'm seriously considering finding a support group for working through the booze issues now though. It may sound a bit callous but I've had friends leave us before, 3 suicides, 1 beaten to death, 1 car crash and now 1 gunned down so it's not the grief so much that made me drink again. It was more just... it's what we always used to do to blow off steam. Having written that; it sounds cold and I don't mean it to. Just not sure how else to word it...