I heard a woman mention the other day that her therapist had her write a long list of things she could do when restless. Not big deal things, but stuff like color, play solitaire, clean out a drawer. She says she's checking things off the list and having fun with it. To me, having a schedule is also very valuable. Even if I don't do what's on the schedule, I do something different that is NOT what I was doing while drinking.
I don't think you need more "willpower" and would like to offer that "I don't understand why I can't do this" is your
addiction Not Wanting to do this. You most certainly can stay stopped - you've already done it many times.
This is a gift from the universe - recognizing that you must stop before you are physically dependent. You run; think of this as a marathon and get going.
O