Zen, time after time I'd tell my husband I'd stopped drinking. Years ago, he'd return home later than me, I'd have drank just a few by then (trying to pretend not to have). He'd ask me if I'd been drinking, I'd deny it, he'd say....."you have, I can hear it in your voice, you change when you drink". I'd later proceed to drink to oblivion. I was pure Beast. Years later, I proceeded to drink all day. No longer.