All of the rebuilding of your reputation and self worth will happen but will take time. I know your mind is going all over stuff but seriously just focus on what you're doing right now. Ridding your body of that nasty poison and all that comes with it. It's a very important step.. See this time as utterly necessary for your recovery. Your body and mind are beginning to heal and adjust.
Every minute away from the poison is a step in the right direction. You are doing a massive thing you should be very proud of yourself xx