Wow your thread has taken me right back to that place. I've never taken medication for withdrawals and my last big cold turkey was horrendous. So I really do understand why you're here and needing a bit of hand-holding. I did the same. Good thing is there is someone here 24/7 so you can shout "help" any time. This is the time you'll look back on as a reason to never pick up again. So if you have the energy to journal etc it might help you further down the line.
There's nothing you need to do right now except take care of yourself. Whatever helps. Lots of water vitamins and rest. I kept the TV on low volume all night at first it helped with the night fear.
Oh I feel for you I really do but you are literally saving your life right now. It's never going to change you've proved that to yourself on your last binge. Kindling got me too and I know I can never drink safely again. It's a relief once you accept that.
Take care and keep posting xxx