Trying to take it very simple today. I have everything I need inside of my apartment. Trying not to think too much about the future because I start obsessing on it very badly. I honestly don't want to get off the couch because everything feels so overwhelming to me. This is usually how my Day 1 goes. Really worried about this evening wondering if I'm gonna be staring at the ceiling all night long obsessing on everything I need to do. I really wish I could start this job like tomorrow to help me focus on something positive. Hope I feel okay tomorrow so I can get out and walk or something. It's not healthy to stay in your house days at a time. Idk.