Totally relate to your post. You aren't alone. I'm here to say, for me, it's getting better in small incremental steps, like a 'cha-cha' dance.
You just have to bear with it. Freedom hasn't come in one big sonic BOOM, at least, it hasn't been that way for me. Some people seem to recovery quickly, others slowly. I'm one of the slow-cookers:-/ Making peace with that fact has helped me accept the journey.
As someone else mentioned, those demons? It takes time unearthing the dark entities and allowing them entry into your conscious awareness. Once they are out of hiding, so to speak, I look at them and see them for what they are, just different aspects of being human.
Hang in there, it does get better.