I'm glad to see you back too Caprice
Absolutely noone wants to see you beat yourself up - thats wasted energy that could be far better used elsewhere
I think a little introspection is needed after a relapse tho - it's important to know where we went wrong and it's even more important to make sure we don't go wrong again.
There are some great ideas on what a recovery plan is and what one might look to you here:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ery-plans.html (Psst...wanna know why I'm always recommending recovery plans?)
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