Caprice6

Thanks. It did seem like an eternity. It's amazing for all those with months and years of sobriety. Maybe I'll get there too. It's not calling me now and i will do another 40 days, no matter, just because I'm hell bent to prove it to myself i can do better even if it doesn't make me feel better or worse. I cannot do moderation, it just ends up gradually increasing in frequency and amount. I don't want to fool myself, I know I'm no exception and am prone to full on relapses.
41 days is an attainable goal, I can see a mark an end if you will. After that I may extend and push on. It's not like I'm counting the days until i can drink again, it's only a benchmark and is more realistic than infinity to me.
Thanks and best to you as well!