Originally Posted by
Jodit77 
Thank you. It's all so true...just trying to get through it... your right. I'm not going to get any answers. I'm sure he's just looking for next fix, surviving not worrying about anyone he hurts in his path of destruction
That's right. This isn't about you at all. Addicts are so wrapped up in the next hit that people are just casualties.
You deserve much better.
These episodes in your head will die down in time. Have you gone to any Al Anon meetings or therapy? I think it would be helpful for you. That's what I had to do to put things into perspective. I've been you in past relationships and I'll tell ya - never again. I hope this is a valuable (although super painful) life experience when you look back on it someday.
Stay busy! That helps to keep from dwelling on it.
Maybe hang out here and read around the forums, there are a couple sections for the Friends & Family of Alcoholics and/or substance users too. Welcome. Sorry for the reason you had to find us.