Originally Posted by shauninspain

Sorry to hear that. But soon you will be sober enough to access the situation and identify why you picked up. I'll tell you a story about something that I did, on one occasion, to make sure that I did not leave my house and buy alcohol.

I had been pacing around in the house all day and the voice kept screaming at me to go to the shop and buy vodka. I didn't want to, but deep down I knew that I was ultimately going to give in. When the evening had arrived I was going nuts, crying then laughing hysterically, then crying again. Then I decided that I had to leave the house and get the vodka. I picked up my house key and a £10 note and walked to the door, then suddenly I had a thought, I had to do something ANYTHING to stop this madness, I had to stop myself from going outside my house!! As if on auto pilot I turned around and ran into the kitchen. When there I stripped myself totally naked, opened a cupboard and took out an unopened bottle of Ketchup and a packet of Rice Krispies. I opened the bottle and tipped the entire contents onto the floor, followed by the packet of cereals.

I threw myself onto the floor and writhed around for a couple of minutes covering myself in the sticky mixture that was snap, crackling and popping. Picked up a couple of handfuls and rubbed it into my hair and all over my face. I must have looked looked the devil himself, all red and scabby. I lay on the floor for minutes panting and wailing.

I knew that I could not go outside looking like that. Even if I dressed my hair and face was matted with gloopy sauce. I walked into the shower and spent 20 minutes cleaning myself off. And do you know, when I stepped out of that shower all desire for a drink had gone, the craving that I had had all day had vanished.

Next time do what ever it takes mate. However insane it might be.

''We're never gonna survive unless we get a little crazy'' - Seal