Congrats, MidnightBlue! As a fellow Octoberist that joined about the same time you did I will say it's awesome to see you have racked up five years sober. Thanks for your insightful and eloquent post, MB! I can appreciate when you say your emotions don't always match up to the accomplishments. I too look forward to my sobriety anniversary as a landmark to observe and reflect on the changes since I quit drinking. So mine was almost two weeks ago and while it was nice, I must admit I was tired and had a long and annoying day at work. Right now I'm kind of ambivalent about my job- but not my career- and kind of frustrated about it. But I also know that the sober me isn't stuck doing it, I now have options.