I am so grateful
October 14, 2012 , I found this place. Thank God, the Universe, You and me. I have not had a drop of alcohol since. I am sitting here on my couch so happy and grateful for my clear head. I will NEVER drink again.
I am grateful for my alcoholism because it made me grateful for myself.
When I stopped drinking and remained sober for a period of time I was forced to evaluate myself. If I started thinking about drinking I would ask myself,"What is so wrong here that I need to esacpe?" "What am I feeling deep down? "
So, I learned that I start drinking when I am facing rejection. Where did that come from? Why my upbringing , of course. Abusive childhood and being victimized. I drank because I believed that I was helpless and a victim.
I will never be a victim again. Victims are powerless , helpless and most important.. they are not responsible for their actions.
The people I met on this site helped me save my own life.
Thank you SoberRecovery. Thank you all of the members. If I can help anyone feel free to message me.