Hi della.
You should be proud of yourself. Its very very hard especially when we have to do the complete opposite of what we do amd know by nature.
I understand where you are, been there. Every step is one step closer than the last. And every day is a chance to do it better than yesterday. There's always a way to turn around.
Keep it up. You making progress although progress isn't always bells and whistles and neon flashing signs. Especially when you used to drama and feeling strong emotions all the time.