Hi Lava
The best thing I ever did for my depression was stop drinking.
I'd been depressed for son long I didn't even realise it wasn't normal to feel that way.
Getting sober didn't cure my depression - but it did alleviate it greatly...and staying sober gave me a level playing field and a constancy of mood from which to deal with my mental health.
Like Anna said early recovery is hard - but you're not alone, and there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Stay drinking and there's no light at all.
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