I had to throw the white flag of surrender, bobdrop.
Alcohol will defeat even the strongest people. I think probably the strongest keep trying to beat it long after it has already won. Alcohol is no respecter of titles, occupations, or how many people are relying on us.
Surrender is the best thing I did when it comes to alcohol. Surrender to the fact that my life was unmanageable and I had to eliminate alcohol to regain life.