Hi Bob
Drinking has a way of magnifying despair, and making things seem very black and white.
You drank again - ok that's not great but you can definitely come back from this
You are far from being too gone, man.
Many of us have relapsed, picked ourselves up, redoubled our efforts, made better plans and stayed sober
If you're feeling really low right now why not give a crisis line a call? some numbers and good reading here too:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html
D