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Old 10-09-2017, 01:11 PM
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Jezzi
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Join Date: Aug 2017
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It's been a while :) Day 71

Hey everyone! I haven't posted in long time. I'm happy to say I am still on the sober bus and happy to be here.

Things had been going very well until 4 days ago. I had a random panic attack that floored me. I mean full blown panic that lasted hours, it was terrible. In the days following I woke up immediately anxious; heart pounding, headache, nausea, the whole bit. Today, thankfully, I didn't wake up feeling that way. I'm still struggling to eat since that day and in the back of my mind are the "thoughts" I struggle with. I'm trying though.

I decided to log on here because it had been a while and I'm really glad I did. I'm reminded that I'm still in early recovery even though I felt like it had been ages already and I had it all under control. I am frustrated and slightly discouraged, I'll admit. I thought that the worst was over and it was just about learning and growing from here on out, but I was wrong. I'm going to keep going though. It's a journey, not a destination, right?
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