Originally Posted by TiredPrayer

I had a lovely morning and afternoon with my daughter today... bagels, the park, church, Indian food (our favorite!), and some clothes shopping that didn’t end with a tween girl in tears over jeans. Her dad got her around 4pm and I immediately had a huge craving to drink.

This is a pattern... I am a good mom when she’s there, but then she leaves and I desperately want to check out and drink. She’s such a great kid... it’s just that the act of motherhood in general is overwhelming.

So I decided not to perpetuate the cycle. I ate, drank water, and read a book until 7:30 when I went to an A.A. meeting. I haven’t been in years but it wasn’t unfamiliar and now, at least, I don’t feel “New” anymore. I’m doing this... I’m not just debating doing it anymore. And that’s a relief.

Constantly thinking “I have to do something about my drinking” is actually way more exhausting than just being brave, making a commitment, and doing something.