Almost 90 days.
Wednesday will be my 90 days. It's been a hell of a rough go. I am finally into see a family doctor next Monday to get my mental health in order. I drank daily to control the panic attacks and thoughts. So far I'll have 4 or 5 good days then 4 or 5 bad days in a row. I'm in a slump. I've become over obsessed with my health. Heart palpitations=heart attack. Head pressure=epilepsy. Lightheadedness=Heart failure. Today I have so much head pressure like tension headache type thing I've convinced myself I'm going to have a seizure. Just one drink and these thoughts and feelings would go away. I'm really struggling right now. I've done nothing but cry all day and it's terrible. Its thanksgiving here in Canada and I didn't even go to my family dinner due to googling symptoms all day and self diagnosing myself with seizures. I'm a mess. When does this get better?