That kind of thinking will keep you drinking. You’re starting to compare your journey to others as if you’re not as bad. Picking up again usually lies down that road.
But, aren’t we all chronic relapsers? Which one of us on this site stopped drinking the very first time they tried? Isn’t that why we most of us ended up here, we tried on our own behind the scenes and got worried? I think all those day ones before we started posting here count as relapses, we just didn’t shine a light on them by posting. And I relapsed a ton after joining here a few years back, I just didn’t post. I wish I had.