Saying sorry and good-bye to friends
I have been trying to say sorry and good-bye to my friends that I have hurt with my drinking. Not face to face, but electronically. It's all that I can do right now. I didn't think it would be this hard. I told them that I was sorry and that I wouldn't bother them with my drama anymore. I told others that I dumped them because they didn't support me, but in reality it was my drinking that caused all the problems. It's really hard to face the fact that I no longer have my best friends. They had nothing to do with my problems. Some of them hardly drank at all. I don't know why I had to end it permanently, but I can't take it back now. Besides my family, I hardly have anyone left. I guess I thought that they would tell me that it's okay and we can still be friends, but they didn't. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I'm going to miss them.