Well, I was class of March 2017, lasted 45 days and relapsed. Five months later and I am back on day 3. I'll be honest, it is less than I don't want to drink and more that my body is telling me that I must. I was on anti depressants for years (14, actually), and went off last December. For whatever reason these past 3 weeks I've been debilitated with panic attacks. They've even started to happen while I'm drinking, which is new (and drunk panic attacks are terrifying)
I've got some Ativan to help with them but sleep is really bad, I just feel terrible, super fatigued, stomach and bowel irritability. It just isn't worth it and that's what I have to remind myself of.
So, here goes nothing, again!