Hi Elle -
I was a binge drinker, couldn't stop after starting, many day 1's.
Big difference this time was the recovery plan, I am now 2 months sober. I also read up on alcoholism on SR and internet (loads of information out there) being better informed, you know what your dealing with. I was pretty ignorant about it and now I cannot fool myself any longer with lies that I can moderate my drinking, tbh, giving the stuff up is much easier than stopping when you get started. Also if I get a craving, I eat something, do something, it really helps.
Take it a day at a time and don't rule anything out. I don't go to AA, but I would be prepared to try anything for my sobriety.
Couldn't find the recovery plan link myself, so hopefully some kind soul on here will be along with a link for you about them.