DWTDB, you may be right. When I stopped over 20 years ago, one of the things I hated was the thought of never drinking again. But now, approaching 60 years old, I have learned my body just can't handle it anymore and just a weekend of drinking leaves me feeling physically terrible for at least a week. I hope this past weekend was the bottom of the pit for me. I'm ready to try and enjoy a normal life without hiding from all the drinking that goes on around me. I shutter at the thought of having that feeling again. But on to the subject at hand, I am seriously into genealogy and I've seen a lot of genetic things. In that sense, if it is understood that the reason so many people have this same issue, it almost has to be genetic, therefore leaving the satisfaction of knowing this and accepting that, instead of just blaming something that happened in life. I think there is always solace in knowledge.