SAH in response to your post in the previous weekenders. It's a little to early for you to start thinking about christmas. That's your A/V messing with your head. Take it slowly and shutdown that voice when you start thinking ahead of yourself.
I like what Gilmer said about making the comparison with previous employers. But don't forget, when your drinking, it shows right thru too your job too. Staying sober is the only way to gain your confidence back and show improvment in the job place too.