Hi. Interesting post. I am going on all inclusive holiday in October too.
Your av does not have control. You do. It is a thought but it can't pick up the drink. Part of your post does read as though you are convincing yourself it will be OK to drink on hols then stop again. Believe me I've had similar thoughts. But I'm thinking it through.
I don't want to go to day 1 again. I had 3.5 years then started and each time quitting is so much harder. I'm only at 25 days now but dam sure I'm not drinking on holiday. I'm thinking of non alcohol drinks in the sun fabulous sleep then waking up in the morning clear headed hydrated and with no fear or shame or regret. I won't kid myself I can share a bottle of wine with my husband and have a pleasant evening. I want the whole bottle then another then cocktails then blackout. How embarrassing for my son husband and myself. I'm 43 not 18. I'm a mother and will spend the mornings hungover free on the water slides.
Think how much more fun you will have sober and clear headed with your children 😀