Yep. This Is the moment I was talking about in my previous thread, after a long time you spontaneously just let yourself drink, like all the work meant nothing.
This I guess Is the TRUE face of addiction.
Don't believe into it. I think this is more a trigger, you are reminiscing a vacation situation, and what do we all look forward to on vacation? Drinks by the pool/spa/fire/beach etc.
Vacations usually entail allcohol fantasies, I know that if someone told me "tomorrow, Thailand, all inclusive" - first thing id think is.
" imagine all the beer I can drink, I deserve it I've worked so hard, life is too short, stuff it, its Thailand"...tbh I think Iam not allowed to go to Thailand for a while or perhaps never.
Your routine has been successfully at home, looks like another test is Infront of you?