Originally Posted by
tomsteve 
with all the damage drinking has done, why is it hard to say that? still have a notion ya might be able to control it some day? thinkin about the good times you occasionally had?
You can Put me in chains and lock me up tomsteve. I could lie to you. But then that's counter productive for all of us. I had a craving , yes. It was the old "drown your pain" craving.
But I usually gave into it when I had no intentions to quit.
I just know that the journey is tough, And I just had 5 litres of beer offered to me and waved in my face by a relative, he showed up unexpected . But it's not happening and it didn't happen!
I want this badly, Iam even considering on seeing a therapist for my emotions and anger when I arrive back home. And Atm, I need some time to get used to the thought of AA being in my life.