I agree that words mean squat after a while. As to your anger while drunk... "hurt people;HURT people." You were/are angry at yourself,thus lashing out at others. I did it. Most,if not ALL, A's do it at some point. Focus on getting and staying sober,for yourself. The rest is up in the air and will fall where it may. It's not of your control. Only your not drinking is. Hang in there.