I literally can't imagine a good life without it. I've read on here that people say things will get better when you're sober but I honestly don't see how they could. I can't imagine life without alcohol.
That's the wine talking. That's alcoholic thinking, that you don't want to live without it. I used to feel the same way but I got sober anyway cause I was sick of always being too drunk or too sick to take care of my dogs and cats (or myself).
It took me a few months sober before I could see how good sober life really was. I've been sober almost 8 yrs now and honestly can't understand how I drank so much and so often.
I hope you'll give sober life a good chance. It's worth the effort it takes to attain it.