Thank you so so much for your feed back. Im gonna try and work my programme and work through this anxiety and fear, but feel safe that if I crash n burn Id rather take what has been prescribed and exactly as they have been prescribed over a bottle. I guess they are a little safety net. Doctor said she wouldnt prescibe me a lot because she knows my history but felt I could do with a little reprieve.
I'll see how it goes, hour by hour if I have to. I got to a meeting tonight and that has helped hugely.