Originally Posted by
Dee74 
I've heard it said - 'I never got in trouble every time I drank, but everytime I got in trouble drinking was involved'.
If that sounds like you to you, you're in the right place.
you'll find a lot of understanding and support here.
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Thanks for the encouragement! You hit the nail on the head with that quote! It definitely speaks to me. Sometimes I can get away with a bender unscathed, but more often than not, I end up with new wounds (literally and figuratively).
When I started comparing my drinking behaviors with other people I partied with, it became blatantly apparent that I use alcohol in a totally different way. For 75% of the night, it increases my fun...but I can't stop once I've started and when I do inevitably turn that corner into oblivion, there's no telling what will happen. Many, many people have pointed out my "alcoholic tendencies." It's pretty incredible that I've continued to drink for so many years after all of the mistakes I've made because of it. I feel pretty foolish.