Originally Posted by
least 
I was an alky and knew of the pain I was causing my kids, but I handled it by not handling it. I drank more to block it out.
I wasn't trying to make them unhappy, but I was so unhappy I couldn't do unto others what I couldn't do for myself.
Hi
least,
I thought you could use a big hug
Please don't beat yourself up over the past. Give yourself a big pat on the back for the self-awareness and growth you've experienced.
I've been where you're at with feeling the way you do. My sponsor reminded me that if I wallow in self-pity, guilt, remorse, or morbid reflection, I am no use to others. Forgive yourself and love yourself. Be the best version of yourself going forward. :-)
Hugs,
PTF
PS - How about you and I leave this thread together okay? Grab my hand and let's head back to where we can be of service.
