Hello tangledknot , a warm welcome to you .
I knew by the time I was 27 that I was a different drinker than most my age still I kept it up till I was beaten mentally and physically . I had crossed the line of no return .IE every single time I drank I was dreadfully ill and for some insane reason kept this up till about age 50 ,i,m now 60 .
You have came to a great place for help and support .