Hi and welcome tangledknot
I feel like my future can go one of two ways...quit drinking: great life with goals accomplished. Keep drinking: end up a burnout with a broken body and a long list of regrets.
By default of doing nothing, I chose the latter of those options - trust me it's not something you want to do. I wish I'd stopped at 27.
You have every chance of reclaiming your life and a bright future - if you can accept now that you have a toxic relationship with alcohol.
I've heard it said - 'I never got in trouble every time I drank, but everytime I got in trouble drinking was involved'.
If that sounds like you to you, you're in the right place.
you'll find a lot of understanding and support here.
D