awuh1

I had that feeling of destruction also. What had been destroyed, in me, was the idea that I could quit all by myself, without any help.

It turned out that abandoning that way of thinking was the best thing that could have happened.

Sometimes, when something looks like a very bad thing, it is just the opposite. At least that was the case for me. AA was central to things finally changing.

I have a feeling you are going to encounter some friends you have not met yet.

All the best to you.