I think key thing is just accepting that anytime you decide to drink it is likely going to end up the same way ..... you waking up somewhere having no idea how you got there. That's how it was for me to ..... total binge drinker and didn't stop until I passed out in a blackout. Putting myself in danger and risky situations. I'm day 2 of no booze and hoping to kick it for good this time as it's affecting my home life with wife and kids as well as work.