I'm not disappointed but you know what the right thing to do is Purps...
your choice is more of the same, offering nothing but worse misery than you've had so far...or something new....something new that may lead to great things.
I know the habit - I'd stock up too in the old days...but new habits can be learned.
You've worked hard - why throw that away?
Seriously....think of what Sully would say.
Throw the booze away instead.
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ps PJ is right - being drunk in a hurricane - when you may have to deal with a crisis or changing conditions from minute to minute, is not safe.