Originally Posted by
sweetichick 
I'm starting to doubt I am even an alcoholic. I have never lost jobs houses partners or children.
Hi sweetichick
Call it what you like but I think if you re-read some of your old threads you'd find some pretty substantial proof that you have a problem.
I was going to list the things that have happened to you this year alone but its not necessary really,
You know yourself you've been fighting this for a long time now.
If you could just stop you would.
You don't have to go to AA or get a sponsor - but trying to deal with this on your own (even with SR behind you) is not working for you.
If you kick AA into touch you need something to take its place...another meeting based group, some kind of rehab..whatever.
Odds are you're not going to like anything else any better at first either...
but you need to step up to the fight now, not run away.
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