Tomsteve and Hopeful4,
I think it's scary for a couple reasons.
I think the thought of six years of something being over is scary for me. And the fact is I still love her with all my heart.
It's scary because I may lose someone who I know at her core is a wonderful person with a huge heart. She's been through so much with me.
In the last 6 years I've lost my mom, dad, little brother, a grandchild, and a grandfather.
She's the person that left her work immediately when the little baby passed away and met me at the hospital and held my dead grandson. She made sure I held him even though I was in bad shape.
There's a lot that will be lost. And i'll be by myself again.