Nice to meet you Neelll and Joe. I think this place is invaluable for keeping the right perspective about things and remembering that recovery is a work in progress. I was so angry with myself for drinking but feeling hostile, like that, towards myself usually just makes me want to drink more. It takes time and it seems that everyone has had more than a few slips before they become sober for good. I wish you the best of luck with your tapering down Neelll and stay online and in touch.
I hope you both and your families are safe and well during this scary time. Gabe x