Hi Brett, I'm sorry to hear you've continued to struggle. It's so important to have supportive people around you, so I hope you can find a better sponsor. I've dealt with None of this is your fault. None. I've dealt with unsupportive and judgmental sponsors too. Remember they are just humans who bring their own baggage into the relationship, which we all are. You are not doing anything wrong, you just need to find someone who understands and supports you. There are good people out there.