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Old 09-01-2017, 04:00 AM
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behindblueyes
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Join Date: Apr 2012
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Everyone is gone.

I was a pretty big drinker, especially when I didn't have custody of my child.

I have been back to reality for a while now. I am realizing a few things:

-A lot of people want nothing to do with me. I have a bad reputation around here for doing/saying things I don't even remember. This reputation extends the whole way into my child's school (the parents).

-I have lost a good 7+ years of my life. It's like I blinked and everything around me is different. I wasn't even an every day drinker, just enough to mess up my brain to the point of memory loss. I knew it was getting bad when I wouldn't remember full conversations I had with people between days I would drink.

-I am alone, am about 15 years behind in life, and all I have (had) are drinking buddies. Everyone my age is buying houses, getting married, has kids and so on. What a waste alcohol was. It's going to take a long time (if never) to earn the trust of family, friends, and everyone back.

Alcohol really does distort everything around you. I am in shock at how different my life is and how many people put up with me at my worst.

What things did you do to improve your life after quitting?
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