I'm so glad I went back to read this... seems that since I've let it be known that I'm no longer offering solutions, help, $$ or advice, my son is giving me "space", haha! I no longer have the excuse of the stress he provokes to avoid healthy food, exercise or socializing. I have to focus on what's really best for me, which meetings help me with. I think about my son often but in terms of hope and love, not so much fear and anguish.