yeah...
that being jerked out of denial around my dependance....
hate that... ;o)
life only works well for me when I am living in reality...
doing the footwork... and leaving the outcome up to my HP...
my addictive nature will have me chasing my tail in very short order... so... I have learned that I have to be scrupulously honest... to me.... (cause my HP alreadys knows what I'm up to )... and to look beyond just not using... to understand what is driving me to use... and then do something if possible about that...
I follow the 12 steps... so.. I got rid of a lot of my "use" motivators by doing several inventories on my character... as honestly as I could be at the time... and then doing my amends as life allowed...
and always being aware...
but.. I had to go to be with others that were trying to do the same thing as I ...
drugs.. alcohol ... food...
I thank God I never liked gambling...
anyway...
your becoming awake to the reality...
Sober Recovery is an amazing avenue to open the eyes... and keep them open... so...
face to face meetings might not hurt as well.. ;o)
blessings