Memories of before.
I've been having a lot of thoughts the past couple of weeks to "before" I picked up. I was young,happy,LIVING! Then I think back to when I 'started', I see dark sadness. A thunderstorm rolling in, if you will. Progress maybe? I'm a few days past 9 months sober,had a breakup and life is 'good?'. I just still have the feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop(I'm also co-dependant apparently..yes!) . It's strange and almost like I still don't trust myself anymore? I'm looking at that as a good thing for now,but I just don't trust myself yet.. I know; time and working my plan are the thing to do,but just a weird feeling...Anyways...Hope everyone is well!