Well, you know you would be welcome at any AA meeting - all you need to do is consult Google and get your bum to a meeting. AA is what taught me the strategies for living comfortably sober. I reckon I might have managed to stay sober a while before the old AV caught me out again, but I'd have had a lot on my mind without working on my recovery.
You can rock up on an occsassional basis - just as folk do if they're on holiday somewhere.
Why not do yourself a good honest list of the ways alcohol affects different areas of your life when you are active in your addiction? That might help you with the task of playing the tape forward to how things could / would likely go if you risked that bender:
Relationships
Integrity
Money
Work
Health
Home / House
All those things were affected for me - all negatively. I pray I never go back there, and I pray that you won't either.
Wishing you all the best for your sobriety and continuing recovery.
BB